whirlwind

I don't know whats happening
I feel this way and I don't know why
It's like the burdens of the world sit and rest on my head
It's like I'm somehow to blame for the suffering and the pain
Its like the scars I have I deserve each and every one
Its like no matter what I say or do its all the same
Days go by like a blur each one like the last
people are the same just the face seem to change
one has 2 the other 10
i dont know what to do
where to look
what to say
its all a mess inside my head
trapped in a whirlwind
spinning round and round
will i get out at all...

R.xxx

glue

you help me rise when i fall
lift me up dust me off
your the glue when i crack
your the hinge that keeps the door and wall intact
your the button that keeps the coat as one
your the binding of a book
your the cast of a broken arm
if you left i wouldn't be here after all..

R.xxx

when no words are left to say
you smile and just carry on day by day
when there is nothing to be done
nothing that can be undone
you do the things that the world expects
when there is no way to explain
you silence the pain
bury it deep within your chest
when there is nobody to listen
you bottle the screams until the cracks begin to show
then you laugh to fill the cracks
and then you do it all over again....

R.xxx