missing

and sometimes the hurt gets too much to bear
Your chest feels hollow, there's not enough air
Your tears begin to fall
Your heart breaks down
because what we need is no longer around
You feel the loss it cuts your heart
just wish it would all come back
helpless and waiting
you sit there praying
hoping one day it will return
the missing piece of your heart
so it can beat as one again..

you've stopped shouting, stopped screaming
what is the point?
no one listened
no one cared
no one battered an eye lid in concern
the people are all the same
no one can see the turmoil
im the strong girl that smiles
im the strong girl who will always be there
im the strong girl who trys to keep everyone happy
one day the girl was not so strong
one day the girl had to leave it all...

R.xxx

little girl

little girl dodging cracks on the pavement,little girl staring at the stars,little girl watching the clouds go by..
time passed her by in a flash same girl new age now she's grown, dodging hardships of life, still staring at stars but with different dreams and like always watching the clouds go by just with different eyes..

R.xxx

we have so much to say but we cant find the time
want to talk alone but someone is always in the way
want to explain our heart
But someone is always listening
want to go away
but someone is always watching
but its ok I understand why you can't say
im on your side anyway
through darkness or light
im always by your side


R.xxx

AMBIGUITY

So here I am sitting and thinking about nothing and everything
about no one and everyone
about something and nothing at all
my mind feels afloat I can't grasp it
what I want to say I do not know and what I feel I can't name
is it a moment from peace or a moment from destruction
this ambiguity will drive me insane
am I not meant to be aware of myself by now or have I failed to understand the basics of our development
have i fallen into some invisible hole and and can't get out but i'm not even that deep
still aware of others around me
which makes me more aware of my oddities

R.xxx

Free

Wanting to walk and never look back
Is it possible to shed ones skin and disappear
to leave ones physical self and carry on
to leave no mark of existence and go away
with no one looking or no one holding you back
free as a bird
go wherever the wind takes you
liberated
happy
free...

R.xxx

want to call but don't know what to say
want to meet but don't know what to do
want to tell you everything
but don't know how
want to trust you with all i have
but don't know how
want to make you mine
but don't know how....

R.xxx