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we've been up and we've been down
seen it all
been all around
you make me mad
you make me smile
can't say its been easy
was hard for alot of the while
I hurt you
you hurt me
we both lost it a little
but we met in between
no matter how much I say never again
we always end up talking once again
but something you don't know
I care for you like my own
I don't think you realise
don't think you ever did
but if something ever happened to you
the part of my heart I gave to you
would no longer live.

R.xxx

Loser

So you knocked me down
kicked me while I was on the ground
did you get satisfaction?
did it make you feel more powerful?
So here I am
standing again
you couldn't bring me down I'll even let you try again
thanks to you, I'm that much stronger
that much wiser
lets see who now looks like the loser
you had it all
everything you wanted
but I still pity you
because you've never had what you truly needed...

R.xxx

Here and there
people look frustrated,
busy going one place to another
Always trying to prove their superiority,
their strength in this
materialistic world
Their eyes are loosing meaning
little by little
walking in a daze
I look around and feel amazed
just how quickly they become fazed
by what they do, what car they drive, what home they own
things that don't really mean anything at all..

R.xxx

day by day..

The people fight their loneliness
They all try so hard
keeping their cracks sealed
showing the world their smiles
it's all so fake
it's all put on
it makes me sick
makes my stomach turn
I can't understand
why there are so many novelties
the bare truth
is no longer seen in anything
even though it's always
the most beautiful
but instead
we all try to fit in and get along
day by day
by day

R.xxx

They..

Its based on the them
Its based on the we
Its based on the us
not the you and me
that's what they tell you
what they make you believe
that if you go with the flow
you'll live for eternity
but what if you're different
and don't see it all the way its laid out
what if you break the rules
and make them your own
the system is all thought out
all planned
to keep the world, to control how we must behave
so if your different
you pose a threat
if your different
you won't obey
if they find out your different
they'll get rid of you straight away..

R.xxx

Gone..

I don't think you understand where we're going
neither do I
It feels strange
It doesn't feel right
I'm afraid to say it aloud
but my love for you has changed
I don't know how
I don't know what to say to make you understand
when I don't myself
I care for you deeply
I always will
but somewhere along the road
the love has gone
maybe you changed
maybe I did
but you must know
it will
never be the same..

R.xxx

Look back

No matter how strong you are
the need for someone will always be there
no matter how brave you are
the child in you is still afraid
no matter how carefree you are
the worries catch up some day
no mater how strong your morality
there will be a day your morals failed to stay as strong
this doesn't mean your any less
this doesn't mean your a bad person
it just shows we are all human
we make mistakes
we fall
we crack
we break
but after it all
we stand
we walk
we never look back..

R.xxx

expectations.

I do what I do to feel complete
but sometimes it fails to work
I say what I say to fill the silence
but sometimes it has no sound
I act how I do to fill expectations
but sometimes my standards fall
I do all the things people want without saying
I attempt to fill all their expectations
I try and say what they want to hear
but sometimes late at night I sit and wonder
why does nobody ask what I want...

R.xxx

Different

Ordinary child, blends into the background
becomes part of the furniture
not great they say
not much they think
not worthy they feel
how wrong they were
look who came out stronger
look who became wiser
look who learnt the most
look who changed history..
the ones who are different
are the ones who make the difference
which define the rest..

R.xxx

Stranger..

You've done it again
said you wouldn't but here we go again
how I let you in again, why I let you in, I'll never know
Now you've left your mess behind once again
left for me to clean behind you
never again
keep away, never look back
the person I knew in you is long dead
the new you I don't know at all
i don't recognise your walk your talk,
how you act what you think
how sad you've become a stranger to me

R.xxx

My wall

even my exterior is starting to fall
don't know how long I can keep up this charade
it's all falling down in front of my eyes
the pretence the act is slipping off
the frail me is in the core
I start to show, they begin to see
I must hide , build my wall
only this time much stronger
much higher
indestructible..

R.xxx